Friday, July 3, 2009

Don't Be Scared

I have a confession to make. The post that is dated July 1st was initially drafted to post on March 25th. I created Lisa is for Love on March 25, 2009 – over 3 months ago.

No big deal, right? WRONG!

You see, I discovered my love for writing 3+ years ago and I have a couple of notebooks and a flash drive to prove it. I’m no expert, but I'vebeen told by a real writer, that I’m actually pretty good. In his words, “I have ‘a natural voice’”. Okay, whatever…

I have tons of stories to tell – some are opinions on stuff that makes the news; some are of the introspective, insightful, deep thought variety; and some stuff is based on the reality that is my life. Since I have this “natural voice”, I should be spitting out blog posts quicker than the Duggars
can spit out a kid. Right? Wrong again.

So what was that 3 months about? I thought about it last night and I can only sum it up in four letters: F-E-A-R. That devil called fear has been sitting on both my shoulders, dressed in red suits, yapping negativity in my ear ever since March 25.

Fear Devil #1: What do you mean you want to blog? There about 50-11hundred blogs on the Internets?
Me: Yeah and I love a lot of them. They make me think, laugh, cry, smile…
Fear Devil #2: Exactly! What makes you think you can invoke that type of emotion out of your readers…if you get any readers? Plus, you don’t have that much to write about.
Me: Well um-er-uh, didn’t you read my “About Me” section? It says that this blog is more for me than it is for you. So, your point is?
Fear Devil #1: My point is, just like in relationships, that’s a lame excuse.
Me: But it IS true, I just want a place to put my thoughts. I’ll tell folks about it and if they read it…cool! If not…cool?

I was defeated on March 26, 2009. I couldn't get that conversation out of my head. I started second guessing myself day by day, even though a lot of stuff happened that I could've written about. Days turned to weeks and well, you know how it goes.

But there was something inside of me that kept nudging my spirit. Something that wouldn't allow me to delete the blog altogether. Something that would make me set a date to start again, even though that date has passed many times over.

The spirit of power (read: confidence) resides in me and it had a breakthrough. I ain't scared no mo’! Fear is real (just like I believe the devil is real), but it didn't come from God, because he only gives good and perfect gifts. And I sure as heck don’t have to succumb to it.

So like my first post said way back in March; you can like this blog, love it, or leave it. It doesn't matter to me.

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
2 Tim 1:7

Don’t Be Scared!
With love, Lisa

1 comment:

  1. Lisa! I LOVE this entry! I have my blog set up since last SEPTEMBER and I still don't advertise it. I have, literally, a bazillion stories I want to publish on my blog...but that same FEAR demon has kept me from being more vocal about my blog. I keep feeling like it's not ready every now and then, I go and write something...and i publish it...but i don't send the link it just sits there, as my personal journal.

    I plan to be a famous makeup artist one day, and I keep thinking "what if this comes back to bite me in the butt once I become famous??"

    But, I'm glad you finally got up the nerve to jump out there. I love your writing! Its HILARIOUS! Thank you for trusting us enough to share your world with us! Big Hugs :-)



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